Ug. I have writers block and it sucks ass. I’ve been trying to write a piece since Tuesday and it just alludes me. I can’t even put together a good intro. This happens when I am asked to write something, not something that comes up out of my soul. I HAVE to be able to get through this crap.
At least I can write a damn blog entry.
Sheesh.
As I was getting ready for work, I sat at my PC and talked with one of my favorite LJ'ers, angiewarhol, about "The Justice League", and it somehow fired a synapse that triggered a memory about my childhood.
I get very few crystal clear glimpses of my past and my transsexuality. Usually, it is just a warm memory that is fuzzy at best. For some reason, tonight, I remembered a theatrical presentation of Robin Hood that my 3rd-grade class (not sure exactly sure of the grade) was presenting.
Coming back from Kentucky, Lisa gave me a GLSO Newspaper to read on the way back. Its a queer organization in Kentucky. Anywho, an article in it hit me like a ton of bricks, and I wanted to share it….
The Loss of Innocence aftermath of the affair by Kelly O’ferrell “This is not the face of an ingenue; this is an old soul in a new body- wary, wise to her own long past, on to the wiles of the world, and having miles to go before she sleeps.
The error seems not sufficiently eradicated that the operations of the mind as well as the acts of the body are subject to the coercion of the laws. But our rulers can have authority over such natural rights only as we have submitted to them. The rights of conscience we never submitted, we could not submit. We are answerable for them to our God. The legitimate powers of government extend to such acts only as are injurious to others.
Well, I think I’ve solved my blogging issue. For the longest time I have wanted to be able to blog/post to my website but it’s a pain in the ass to then go over to LJ and reformat the post…then put in any LJ coding and then finally post! I was using Movable Type and an LJ crossposting script, but it wouldn’t let me post the personal posts “friends only” on LJ.
Well, I went in the Indiana Statehouse for the first time in my life. And who stepped through those doors? Marti. It’s wierd to be in a space as a female that I have never been in as a male.
I was nervous as hell at first because it was a press conference and I have mild social anxiety anyhow. As soon as we got into the room where the press conference was to be held and that all washed away.
Danielle, I heard you call for me from behind me. I reached back my hand. I felt your hand grasp mine. Even if it was (or is) a just a dream, I hold on to it. I love you.
Well, this Thanksgiving was a joy. I spent it all with my best friend in the entire world, Jennifer. She came over and picked me up and we took these pics before we even drove away…
While visiting the dentist today I found this picture you colored at the dentist.
I found something worth more than any gold or silver, I found a piece of you.
Remembering by Marti Abernathey
As I was working on today’s annual Transgender Day of Remembrance I was fretting about the candles, the slides, the names, the equipment, all the things that go into making a day like this happen. I was relaying this anxiety to a friend of mine. He said “well this day isn’t about the candles or the slides, but about remembering.
Today is a day to remember those that have fallen due to some senseless act of violence.
I was taken for a woman at work….and twice this morning…and I’m in total work gear…totally andro. Could it be the purse? The hair? The breasts? I don’t give a shit…whateva it is I hope it keeps happening. When I started this journey I didn’t have much hope of ever passing…so this is a very nice suprise. :)
All those years of watching SNL just paid off.
When I go to work I can't go in full femme mode so I just go extremely andro. Since I go through some pretty rough neighborhoods I just let everyone think what they will.
A couple of days ago I lost my battery charger, or so I'd thought. Today on the bus a fellow regular said "She turned it in, although she referred to you as a woman.
I know your voice has changed but I still have a tape of you talking into the recorder. It’s really the only tangable thing I have to tell me that you ever existed.
To say I miss you would be the understatement of my life.
I love you my darling Danielle.
Vote!
If you have kids that are teens, it just may….
So if you haven’t heard it enough….get out the vote!
P.S. I’m soooo nervous…. I think I’ve crossed every body part I have for Kerry. ;)
The Bush website proclaims a decisive victory! You be the judge….
CNN: Kerry: 87% Bush: 21% Tie 2%
CBS: Kerry: 87% Bush: 22% Tie: less than 1%
and that bastion of liberalism…
Fox News Kerry 51% Bush 48% Tie: less than 1%
Robert Novak agrees with the Bush team. “President Bush may not have scored a clear-cut victory, but he certainly looked good. In fact, he handled the town hall format with greater skill than Kerry.
Sorry for not posting of late. I read a couple days back, but I can’t read back far enough to get caught up. If you have had something major happen, post a link to the url and I will make sure to read.
The reason I haven’t posted is because of something you may have read about on this LJ. The gubernatorial race here is very tight and the Republican candidate agreed to meet with the GLBT community to discuss his position.
I sent this e-mail to CNN:
http://www.logcabin.org/logcabin/notice-description.tcl?newsletter_id=918062
I learned from the above URL that you refuse to run a commercial (a very tame commercial that I watched at their website) from the Log Cabin Republicans, yet you continue to run the lies of the “Swift Boat Veterans.” I have decided that I cannot, in good conscience, watch CNN for my news coverage. It’s sad to see CNN follow in the partisan footsteps of Fox News.
“What we have lost will never be returned to us. The land will not heal - too much blood. All we can do is learn from the past and make peace with it.” Ada-from the book “Cold Mountain”
So much I have missed in your life, my dear. I miss you more as the days, weeks, and months go by. You are never far from my thoughts. I hear your sweet voice, your warm hugs, and your laugh.
"The promise of America is government that does not seek to regulate your behavior in the bedroom but to guarantee your right to provide food in the kitchen. " I’ve not been a real big fan of the Reverand Sharpton…. but last nights speech was AWESOME!
Omg…the flowers at White River Gardens are breathtaking. Then I went to the Indianapolis Zoo which is right next to the Gardens.
This pic made me think of the Patriot Act and what it has done to the privacy and personal rights. This little one made me think of what it must be like to be imprisoned in a place that isnt your home. Thats bull! So ya, the zoo and the garden were fun….
My Friend
Lexy from Boston came into Indy on Friday night. I met her out at the airport, then took her back to the apartment. I had to work, so I showed her the apartment, then went to work.
Cafe In the morning we went to a nearby cafe called “The Yellow Canary.”
Then we proceeded to prance over to pride. We caught a bit of the parade….
and then jetted over to the actual festival.
Honestly, all this Reagan worship freaks me the hell out. Thousands of folks line the street for a man they didn’t know? Weird. The only way thing I can even remotely relate to is a twinge of sorrow I felt during Lady Di’s funeral, but that was because she was such a humanitarian. I didn’t know her, and honestly, her death hasn’t had a lasting effect on me at all.
I went to the Southside Animal Shelter and immediately fell in love with this pretty little thing.. ;)