Kids, today is Thanksgiving, and by all rights, I have very little to be thankful for. I dont see you anymore, and I speak to you rarely. One thing I am thankful for is your existance. I hope someday that you can understand how hurt I am, and how …

Talked to N and D today…how I miss you! N..damn son…..you sound so…old. I guess that means im getting old too! D, you sounded so confident…..thats a great change..Im glad you like school. Seeing you again has kept me going …

Hi D, I sent you a battery for your barbie car. Every day that passes, my heart breaks a bit more….my children I love you all……I am trying to work towards being able to see you….N, D and T…I think of you every day. …

T- My gawd you’ll be a man soon. Driving around hitting the town…with your windows rolled down….I love you.

Marti

D- I think about you every day. It makes me laugh, and cry, because I remember who you were…but I dont know you now. Wish I could be more in your life. I love you and miss you more than you’ll ever know.

Daddy

N-Gonna see if I can call you this weekend from work…I love you so much and miss you very much. I have spent much of this week preparing for my new web site release. Got some pics from mom, gawd..you look too damn much like me! I love you son. …

T…………..I am so proud of you! Not worrying of being short now R u? I love your strong spirit. LOL…its funny, its the spirit that ive seen in your Aunt J. I wish there were some way to make this all better. The only …

D….saw some pics of you from your 6th birthday…..I miss you so much. I misss you hugs….and you sitting on my lap. My heart aches….someday my daughter….we shall see each other…..

This is my living monument to my children. Im not sure how you wandered here….but if your one of my children…I love you. Read on.

This is a place for me to post info and thoughts for my kids….as I cannot see them anymore. My …