I’ve cleaned up the design of my page to be a bit closer to what I want it to be. It’s by no means perfect, it’s a work in progress. But it’s about 75% of the way I want it to be. I’ve spent far too much time on TikTok while neglecting my writing. I like making TikToks, but video content is not all I want to do. I’m looking for more balance. For a very long time, life has gotten in the way of making content here. But I’ve realised over the years that I did a lot of the writing here as a way to not deal with other things in my life. I’ve mostly dealt with those things, but the desire to make content is still there. I still want to get into a healthy routine of writing, podcasting, and making videos here. I feel like I’m always chasing balance in my life.
I’m genuinely grateful for the life I have now. It was nice to ride up the coast of Northeastern England with my wife a few days ago.
For as long as I have left here, this is the kind of balance I want in my life. I don't feel like I'm hiding from my feelings, or putting my focus in other places to deal with things I would rather not deal with. I just feel like I'm living in the moment and finding joy at that moment.